I Am - John Clare
I am - yet what I am, none cares or knows;
My friends forsake me like a memory lost:-
I am the self-consumer of my woes;-
They rise and vanish in oblivion's host,
Like shadows in love's frenzied stifled throes;-
And yet I am, and live - like vapours tossed
Into the nothingness of scorn and noise, -
Into the living sea of waking dreams,
Where there is neither sense of life nor joys,
But the vast shipwreck of my life's esteems;
Even the dearest, that I love the best
Are strange - nay, rather stranger than the rest.
I long for scenes where man hath never trod,
A place where woman never smiled or wept,
There to abide with my creator, God;
And sleep as I in childhood, sweetly slept,
Untroubling, and untroubled where I lie,
The grass below - above the vaulted sky.
Joanna and Elizabeth with their 5ft2in friend |
If only John could see what has happened to his cottage! |
Apparently five families lived in this building |
5'2" John was rejected by the Northamptonshire militia at a time when Britain was nervous about invasion, and the militia had money. Clare walked 80 miles home from Epping Forest Asylum, surviving on grass to fill his stomach.
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