Tuesday, 28 February 2023

Seventh day of Lent - Disinterest

Wedding of Prince Felipe VI and Letizia Ortiz
heir to the Spanish throne.

king prepared a wedding banquet for his son. He sent his servants to those who had been invited to the banquet to tell them to come, but they refused to come.

“Then he sent some more servants and said, ‘Tell those who have been invited that I have prepared my dinner: My oxen and fattened cattle have been butchered, and everything is ready. Come to the wedding banquet.’

“But they paid no attention and went off—one to his field, another to his business. The rest seized his servants, mistreated them and killed them. The king was enraged. He sent his army and destroyed those murderers and burned their city. Matthew 22

Imagine what this would be like today.  The palace prepares for another royal wedding.  But it all falls flat.  The important guests show no regard for the great honour of being invited.  More than that, they violently abuse the king's messengers.  Do they know who they are offending?

There must be a celebration, and instead the king invites the grateful masses.  We are the grateful masses, and we come willingly.  We will never have a better offer.  

PRAYER:  Everything you are interested in is what I want too.

Monday, 27 February 2023

Sixth Day of Lent - Dismissiveness

The cornerstone of St Vincent
De Paul RC Church, New Orleans,
Louisiana (Wikipedia)

 The stone that the builders rejected has now become the cornerstone. Psalm 118:22

Then Jesus asked them, “Didn’t you ever read this in the Scriptures? ‘The stone that the builders rejected has now become the cornerstone. This is the Lord ’s doing, and it is wonderful to see.’ Matthew 21:42

"No. That's not what we we're thinking of.  What's the good of that?"

If I was inventing a religion I think I would give it a straightforward and simple creed. 

I think I would not be alone.  Modern people in Europe see this ancient creed as archaic.  It has become irrelevant.  Ancient churches, cathedrals, and strange beliefs.  These beliefs also appear to conflict with modern sensibilities.  It may well be that these beliefs have also become harmful and discriminatory.  

So when people come to know Jesus as a Saviour and friend, a minor miracle has taken place.

PRAYER: May I see you more clearly and love you more dearly today.



Sunday, 26 February 2023

Fifth Day of Lent - Hatred

Hatred by Edvard Munch -
in the Munch Museum, Oslo

 
There are six, (or maybe seven) things your creator hates.

1) Puffed up pride

2) A tongue quick to lie

3) Disregard for the innocent

4) A heart that schemes up evil plots

5) The desire to be wicked

6) Bearing false witness

7) Someone who upsets their family deliberately. 

                                                                               Proverbs 6

Hatred is a tough word.  For most of us it is an unsavoury and dangerous emotion.  But are there things to hate?  What if I feel hatred in my heart?  What if I feel hatred towards my own child, my family?  Proverbs here tells us what to hate, and it's not people.  But we must also be aware of hidden hatred, that can not be spoken.  This include self-hatred.

PRAYER: I hate all that you hate Lord.

Friday, 24 February 2023

Fourth Day of Lent - Melancholy

Antonio's Thoughts - Bookcover 
by Robert Hill www.balence.net

What are we here for? What’s the point?  My search for meaning continues.  Life is hard. People toil to survive.

The earth turns, the suns rises and sets, endless repetitions.
People repeat the mistakes of the past.
Great deeds are forgotten in the mists of time.
As the rivers tirelessly attempt to fill the oceans,
People strive for unobtainable satisfaction. Ecclesiastes 1

The French call it ennui.  I think they have a better vocabulary of emotion than we do.  What about the long periods of time when nothing much happens?  I sometimes try to imagine surviving a freezing winter in the days of 'wattle and dorb'.  Coping, surviving.  Getting by.  Sometimes life is hard.  It is a struggle to be positive.  But we recall that we are loved.  There is a great and wonderful Creator.  We are safe in the love this provides.  From solitary confinement, Richard Wurmbrand, the Russian Baptist minister imprisoned in Siberia in Soviet times, worked out that it was Christmas day.  He pulled himself up from the freezing floor of his cell and danced around the room praising God.  
PRAYER:  Everyday, not matter how I feel, I praise you for your goodness and greatness.

Thursday, 23 February 2023

Third Day of Lent - Rejection

 

La RĂªve by Pablo Picasso
He was despised and people rejected him, A person of sorrows and acquainted with grief. And we hid, as it were, our faces from Him; He was despised, and we did not esteem Him. Isaiah 53:3

What a waste!  The monarch arrives to meet the people, but no one turns out to see them.  The intention was to to bring wealth to solve the local problems.  But there is no one there.  Why did they do that?  How does the monarch feel about that?  In history most Monarchs would have punished the people severely.  This one does not.  Rejection is returned with mercy, not hellfire.

PRAYER:  Forgive me when I am not there for you.  I intend to open my arms, just as you open them to me.

Wednesday, 22 February 2023

Second Day of Lent - Regret

 

So the Lord was sorry he had ever made them and put them on the earth.  It broke his heart.  Genesis 6:6

Nietzsche asked the question "would you be prepared to live your life again in exactly the same way?"

This argument is based on the idea that life is brutal and full of suffering.  But it presents me with the question, "what do I regret?  What would I do differently?"

This strange verse in Genesis indicates that things have been bad in the past.  Really bad.  Genesis says that the Creator regretted becoming a parent.  Freedom to be selfish and evil means that humans can be amazing, and can be horrendous. 

What has happened has happened.  We can not turn the clock back.  Regret; what's the opposite?  Could it be delight?  

PRAYER:  May I bring you delight.


Tuesday, 21 February 2023

First Day of Lent (Ash Wednesday) - Grief

 

Grief by Pieter Van Laer 1368

11  Racked with grief, Mary stood by the mortuary door. As she wept, she peered into the gloom 12 and saw two attendants in white, seated at a table.  13 They asked her, “Lady, why are you crying?”

“They have taken my dear friend away,” she said, “and I don’t know where they have put him.” 14 At this, she turned around and saw Jesus standing there, but she did not realize that it was him.

15 He asked her, “Lady, why are you crying? Who is it you are looking for?”

Thinking he was another attendant, she said, “Sir, if you know where the body has been put, tell me and I will go to him.”

16 Jesus said to her, “Mary.”

Everything changes when a loved one dies.  We are kicked sideways.  Things remain familiar, but also distorted.  It is as if we have entered a parallel universe.   Grief is essential.  Mary cannot be spared the pain.  Life is not real without these experiences.  But Jesus is not dead.  He is alive.  Grief and joy mix.  Everything has a beginning, middle and end.  
This is the same for us.  We feel the grief deep within us.  It is like a coldness in the bones; an uncontrollable shaking; a deep pain that feels it will never end.  The reality of grief must be experienced, just like other appropriate emotions.  
Cry out.  Scream, wail.  It will be for a time, and will end.  Then we hear the masters voice calling our name. 
Prayer:  You have allowed this feeling deep within me and I embrace it.  I listen to hear your voice.

Monday, 13 February 2023

Eaves dropping on New Walk


 "No, no, you don't get it!  That's completely the wrong end of the stick!"

Animated conversation overhead by the solitary middle age man I approach on my walk home from Church.  Hoody pulled tight over his head, he plods on, very much in his own world.  I observe appropriate arm gesticulation accompanying the 'just too loud' oration of someone in their own world.  Headphones? Or frustrated personal communication?  I hurry past, not having the courage or audacity to turn and check.  He seems not to notice, so the embarrassment would have been all mine.  

I cut across the canal bridge before him and scurried on up the once ancient thoughafare towards the city centre.  Three people come out of 'All Saints', a deconsecrated church, that for the last few years has been showing a three dimensional multisensory experience  about the life and work of Vincent Van Gough.  

"How could you not enjoy that?" A motherly looking woman with glaring eye scolds the high pony tail of the defiant young girl before her.  The girl glances back with pursed lips.  "Why should she", retorts an older sisterly companion.  "She is still into Disney and barbie, Why should she like Van Gogh?"  I saw ripped jeans and dyed pink hair, very artistic, and a flash of the same pursed lips.

In the city centre, bicycles track past, as if part of a tightly choreographed  display.  Large padded boxes protruded from the riders backs.  I observe the delicate thread made from the many city kitchens to lazy bedrooms in scattered terraces just a cycle ride away.  One quick email prompts tremendous action. From the verification of a Mastercard security code follows the vigorous swirling of vegetables in a red hot wok.  Then, in stately order,  diligent students from the two universities deliver and serve their slovenly counterparts, all for the price of a bowl of pottage.  I wondered if this might create a perpetual virtuous cycle of  consumption.  Students feeding students, who then in turn call on student to bring them food.

As a approached New Walk, a group of fast moving young men walk purposefully towards me.  They talk in hushed tones and I can just make out their Arabic accents.  I can only conjecture what they might be discussing.  Young men speaking Arabic?  I wonder whether they have come from Syria?  What stories would they have to tell?  Their attire spoke of traveling, not the softness of the wealthy comfortable student.  Do they take in their new surroundings?  Are they allowed to?

The avenue of New Walk curves on a gentle gradient upwards.  Here I hear what I take to be Polish.  A mother and father shouldering his young son.  Hopeful eyes enjoying the newness of the walk.  I wonder whether they are heading towards the museum.  Do they know about the museum?  What would they make of it?  I leave them with that thought.

Young Chinese students approach me.  Stereotypically each wears a facemask.  I hear laughing as one cracks a joke.  Would I understand their joke?  Would it be funny to me?  The face masks muffle the laughter.  Each is warm in a similar puffer jacket.  Were they from a part of China that would make the English winter seem mild, or extreme? Did they buy their jackets together, from a uniform shop?

Half way up the Walk you pass St Stephens Scottish Presbyterian Church.  I notice that the windows of the main building appear to have been left open.  The building looks as if no one has been informed that lock down is over.  It is devoid of people, now filled with fresh air and cobwebs.

At the back of the church is a hall.  Smartly dressed African parishioners  skip out of their place of worship.  I guess that they were originally from Nigeria.  Families of all ages, all equally finely attired.  I wondered what their service has been like.  I have been told that there are over one hundred churches in Leicester offering worship in as many languages.  The teenagers approaching me speak in English, and are deep in discussion.  English but with musical Nigerian voices.  I can't make it out.  Are they talking about the sermon?  A soap opera on telly?  The performance of one of Leicester City's talented Nigerian players during yesterday's match?  Who knows.

I fumble in my pocket to find paper and a pen.  I want to recall these conversations.  They are the stories of New Walk.  But I don't have any paper, and nothing to write with.

My stride is in step now with a dog walker heading towards Victoria Park.  I hear him encourage his dog.

 "Yes, Yes that's right.  You've got the right end of the stick!"